rivs' posts with tag: ambivalent
26 days is over. sighs. time really flies soo fast. i just remember my first day here in California. parang inosenteng bata na napunta sa lugar na maganda ang paligid, fresh air, mabundok, lugar na sobrang inamaze ako ni Lord sa ganda ng gawa Niya.
i would never forget my first day here. i didnt even have my jetlag, more than 24 hrs of awakeness tapos diretso na agad sa soccer game ni Brian, then houseparty. the next day church na agad. met new friends, went to a birthday party tapos aun na, sunod sunod na trips, eastridge, kelley park, costco, walgreens, moms, greatmall, rose garden, sanfo, fisherman's wharf, bay cruise, stanford university, santana row, valco, los angeles, disneyland, universal studios, winchester's house, mystery spot, santa cruz boardwalk, pier39, japan town, china town, bloomingdales, nordstorm, 6flags, cupertino, valley fair, downtown san jose, embassy suites, tierra buena, great america, santa clara, NASA.. ate at numerous restaurants, cafe, starbucks, lollicup jamba juice, tgif, mel's diner, bouba gump, japanese restaurant, beard papa, king's buffet, biltmore hotel, denny's diner, sonoma chicken coop, cheesecake factory, el pollo loco, chinese han...shop at different stores, indulge myself in lots of different fruits, met Joel Osteen, tapos bonding sessions with the TFC.. man, jampack ang sked ko ng isang buwan. I AM TRULY BLESSED.
whenever i think of all these blessings, its really overwhelming me.. God's love is truly amazing.. when He blesses you, you really have to widen up your arms coz His blessings are always bountiful and endless. No way that im gonna turn back on my past and dwell to the negative things around me. that's what keeps me away from being blessed coz i always cling to depression.. grabe, sobrang sarap ng feeling ko ngaun na im having to love myself more than i never do. thanks to all my new found friends here who taught me a lot. i'll start reading Captivating. i know I'll be changed and for that, Nothings gonna hinder God's outpouring of blessings upon me.
hay, tama talaga. Claim everything to the Lord, by His Name, NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE. and i always tell myself that YOU are a VICTOR. the battle has been won Rivs, cheer up. Grabe talaga ung napagdaanan ko.. and i will always praise Jesus for what He did because I konw His plans are to PROSPER me and give me a FUTURE. sobra sobra pang hiniling kong blessings ang napunta sakin. sabe ko lang i really want to be blessed and be changed on what i see to myself, eh aun, DO NOT LIMIT GOD nga db? ayun, binagyo ako eh. grabe talaga..
ngaun, sobrang saya ko dito, i have redeemed myself once again. andame kong experiences na truly hinde ko makakalimutan.. i would always treasure everything.. 2 years is just like 3 months. mabilis lang un.. babalik ako..
sa mga kwentuhan namen ni isang, i would always remember it, our workouts, dang! briancito.. shuuxx, Brian: hey ate riva, are you bored?
Rivs: what do you want to play?
Brian: anything you want :)
he's always like that, mabaet na bata.. i would never forget POGI. my teddy here in san jose. tsk. Cat, Ate Gela, our trips. tsk masaya magpicture picture ano? Cat, thanks soo much to the camera . and im really sorry too, i think i broke it X(
Ate Joe! naman, eto talaga ang d ko makakalimutan.. BEAUTIFUL GIRL-BARTENDER! yes, cmon! *covers my mouth with two hands* hahahaha! yes, wala pa kong san jose, close na kame neto. iba na ang bonding namen neto, ym lang yan! pero grabe na! ate, thanks soo much for everything, sobrang grateful ako kasi pinas pa lang pinafeel mo na sakin na sobrang welcome ako jan. and i really felt that way na sobra pa sa iba. ill always wear this shield necklace ate.. tska ate joe, one of the best nights ive ever had ko ung stay naten sa pad ni kuya julies. grabe, im at the baaartender!!!! :) Ate Weng! etong si ate weng! basta panalo si ate weng nung overnight stay namen kina Pring. star of the night! hehehe, ate weng would always ask me if im okay, am i bored, am i tired, gutom ka na ba? san mo gusto pumunta? yan si ate weng. sobrang thoughtful niyan, nilibre kame sa sonoma chicken coop niyan! April, thanks for the dollar heart Pring. masaya kasama lalo na pag sa bahay kame ni Pring, our second home. nanay namen si ate weng. hehehe. April, tell Renna and Rose thank you so much for Bonito. gandang remembrance. pagbalik ko sa 2009, malaki na siya. hehehe, jokes! pagpunta mo dito sa december, punta ka sa bahay taz shopping ever tayo sa DV.
and of course si Kuya Bentong, este si Kuya Julies/Julius. super daldal, d ka mabobore kasi ang gagawin nio lang eh magkwentuhan ng magkwentuhan. galante pa. ang tatay nameng mga TFC. hehehe. sobrang baet. kahet san lupalop kame ng sanjose o san fo man d kame maliligaw. lam niya lahat ng galaan! hanep! nilibre niya kame ng starbucks, chinese han buffet, jamba juice, bay cruise, atbp. grabe saludo ako dito. baet baet. mahahanap mo na rin ang Beautiful Girl mo Kuya bentong. hehehe, SUICIDAL??! jokes!
and sila Jessica, Lisa, Jeff, kuya JD, and Ria and a lot more. i gain so much in here. sobrang taba sa puso ang nararamdaman ko ngaun. kasi sobrang blessed talaga..
hay, i still have 5hrs to go before i leave.. its really an ambivalent feeling. ngaun lang nagsink in sakin na im leaving san jose and when i come home diretso klase na. balik na sa normal. ngaun sobrang may motivation na ko. 2009 riva..
me pasok na ule.. another toxicity! yes! bring it on!
Thank you my Father for everything that You have given me, for all the blessings that you poured on me. Lord, I just want to give you all my praises and thanksgiving for You alone deserve everything. Lord, you know how much i love all these people that ive been so close and dear to me, Bless them Father, lead them to the way You wanted them to be. I know You love them more than I do, and i know that You will always guide them, satisfy their hearts Lord. May You always bless the new friendship that has been made, praying it will grow in the midst of You. Thank You oh Jesus, No words can describe how thankful I am because of everything. I love you more than anyone else, In Jesus name, Amen.
"Be strong and courageous,do not be terrified, do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go." Josuhua 1:9b
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